ab imo pectore



ALL I WANTED WAS FOR YOU TO CARE

BUT YOU DONT SEEM TO BE BOTHERED

THE BITCH

| Jessica |
| 010990 |
| virgorian |
| tpbusinessschool|
| communicationsandmediamanagement |
| exkatongconventgirl|
| cmmcouncil |
| tptennis |
| shopaholic |
| loudhailer |
| narcissist |
| camerahogger |
| denimwhore |
| partyanimal |
| procrastinator |

WISHFULTHINKING

| shower me with coach hunny and serenade a love song to me|

EXITS

|kimmie|
|gill|
|paan|
|amalina|
|vann|
|aretha|
|evande|
|fee|
|nicole|
|marianne|
|tracy|
|jasmine|
|faiz|
|gisella|
|melanie|
|clair|
|amanda|
|sonam|
|jac|
|faye|
|yanti|
|aida|
|euniceHOLE|
|trey|


SUICIDAL THOUGHTS





THE DEADLY PAST

June 2005
 July 2005
 September 2005
 October 2005
 November 2005
 December 2005
 January 2006
 February 2006
 March 2006
 April 2006
 May 2006
 June 2006
 July 2006
 August 2006
 September 2006
 October 2006
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 December 2006
 January 2007
 February 2007
 March 2007
 April 2007
 May 2007
 June 2007
 July 2007
 August 2007
 September 2007
 October 2007
 November 2007
 December 2007
 January 2008
 February 2008
 March 2008
 April 2008
 May 2008


LUSTS

| money |
| topshoptop |
| divecert |
| accessories |
| phone |
| heels |
| macnotebook |
| cybershot |
| guesshandbag |
| fcuktop |
| fendispecs |
| pumps |
| edhardyshirt |
| coachwristlet |
| mangoshorts |
| dioreyepalette |
| guesswatch |
| crumplerlaptopcover |
| jeans |
| onepiece |
| handbag |


LOVE OF MY LIFE


i miss kc


besties <3


godsisters (:


some kinda magic


my babyy


my laughing gas


sexaye!


BFF <3


it's ladies night


sch's fun with them around


my leading ladies (:


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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

9:35 AM

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
"Just what your worth"

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.


Why's everyone me just so superficial?
it's scary. it's freaking me out.
i just dont know who to trust now.
sometimes all i want to do is to just sit down and cry
take some valium mixed with codiene and just sit down and cry
im so glad for my bestfriend. i admit that i would not be here now if now for her.
i need to find balance once again.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, May 24, 2008

11:26 AM

Layer 1: On The Outside
Name: Jessica
Birth Date: 1st Sept
Current Status: single
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: dark brown

Layer 2: On The Inside
My Heritage: chinese
My Fears: anything that crawls, flies
My Weaknesses: Procrastinating.
My Perfect Pizza: pepperoni and cheese with pineapples

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My First Thoughts of waking Up: snooze button
My Bed Time: 2am or later
My Most Missed Memories: coffee with the best friends

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King.
Single or Group Dates: single
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Tea or Nestea: Tea (earl grey or english breakfast pls)
Chocolate or Vanilla: choc
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino with an extra shot

Layer 5: Do You?
Smoke: Yes
Curse: at times
Take A Shower: 2x a day
Have A Crush: not now
Want To Get Married: yes
Believe In Yourself: yes
Think You’re A Health Freak: pretty much

Layer 6: In The Past
Drink Alcohol: doesnt most
Gone to the Mall: every wk!!
Been on Stage: Yes.
Eaten Sushi: since i was a kid!
Dyed Your Hair: NEVER

Layer 7: Have You Ever?
Played A Stripping Game: OMG YES AND IT WAS BAD!
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: NEVER

Layer 8: Are You Hoping To?
Get Married: yes

Layer 9: In A Guy
Best Eye Color: brown, grey and green spells yum!
Best Hair Color: brown or black
Short or Long Hair: short, bald or crew cut's the best. hee!

Layer 10: What You Were Doing
A Minute Ago: typing this
Hour Ago: applying heat cream
Four And A Half Hours Ago: bathing
A Month Ago: partying
A Year Ago: probably still partying

Layer 11:
I Love: shopping, tennis, sun, sand, sea, my friends and family
I Hate: stupid people
I Hide: when im playing hide and seek?
I Miss: my best friends (:
I Need: macbook pro, imac and a PA
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, May 19, 2008

9:54 AM

i need to go on a shopping ban... bought too many things in the past two days.

lets see:
4 t shirts
3 bangles
2 sandals
1 heels
1 dress

hee!

and i saw the weirdest stall at the airport today.
it's called something kue kue.. note: they spelt kueh kueh wrongly.
next they're selling packet teh botol..
like wth botol literally means bottle.
omg they just killed themselves.HAHAHAA
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

9:00 AM

i fucking hate psychology and i really want to drop the subject.
fuck i need something to numb myself.

been contemplating about getting inked..
though im too much of a pussy about the pain.
how fuck how.

FUCK I REALLY HATE PSYCHO!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

9:41 AM

i'm scared... i do not know what is happening to me.
inside me i feel this whole mixed bag of emotions that i myself cannot swallow.

if only they knew..
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, April 19, 2008

9:23 AM

happiness is all over.
it is something that is usually overlooked
but when you look closely, you realise it is there all along.
ive found that happiness.
that immense amount of bliss that i have not felt in such a long time.
i am so grateful for the ones i love and the people around me.
it is because of them that i have finally grown up and come to become who i am today.
for once...
i actually feel really blessed
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, March 20, 2008

10:24 AM

why do we always only miss someone when they're gone
when you know that the likelihood that youll see them again is highly low
it just leaves you feeling all guilty that youve never once treasured them in the past
i thought there was always a tomorrow
i thought it was never goodbye
but reality hurts, real bad i must say
i just wish i can just turn back the clock now
press apple S
and just save our happy moments,
play it rewind,
just like the good old days which never seemed to end...

what's up with this week?
why do i keep losing the ones i love?
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;